Monday, August 25, 2014

Sometimes, There Are No Words....

Hi all, so sorry for my delay in posting.  I looked at my last post and there has been quite a gap.  There is a lot going on, but I don't have a lot of words for it at this point.  BUT, when I do, just wait - there will be a lot of writing going on then!  So, stay tuned....

Monday, August 11, 2014

So, this happened yesterday....

We took the kids shopping this weekend for some new clothes.  I'm amazed at how quickly they need new clothes!  They must play hard because their clothes are beat up!  {Yes, even Lauren!  I think the knees in her pants are more worn than Landon's, to be honest.}

While we were shopping, she said "mama, can I get this scarf?"  as she shows me a pink scarf she had selected.  I looked at the price {it was cheap} and said "sure," not giving it much thought.  Then she said "now, I can be like you, mama."  In that moment, it was like the weight of the world hit me.  I realized how much of what we do is "caught, not taught."  I have never told Lauren what she could and could not wear.  I have never suggested she get a scarf.  I have been more of a "here are some nice choices for you, do you like any of them/"  Then, I let her choose what she wears.  I am not one to imply/force/choose for her.  I make suggestions, but she has the final say {within reason, mind you.  She is only 6.  I don't expect this to be the case as she grows!}

All that to say, I realized how EVERY. LITTLE. THING. I do impacts my children.  The way I live my life, what I say to people, what I do, what I say, down to what I wear.  It gave me pause to sit back and think about what I am modeling for them.  So, what am I modeling for them?  How is what I do impacting them and their worldview?  To be honest, it is quite daunting, overwhelming and somewhat scary to think about. This is why I need to lean on Jesus and ask for His guidance in parenting.  I'm flawed, broken, and can't do this in my own strength, but I know I can in His.  Parenting is a tough gig, isn't it friends?

This is my prayer for us today ~ "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."  ~ Proverbs 3:5-6

My "mini me" with her new scarf, my shoes and purse!