There, I said it. Feels good to get that off my chest. Funny thing is, I wouldn't have said that before the 21 Day Fix. But, now that I have done that and learned how to take care of myself, I am a sugar addict. See, Halloween was the other day, right? I did really well - bought candy the day of, candy I didn't like, so I wouldn't be tempted, then.................
The doorbell rang. It was a neighbor explaining they would not be home for Halloween, so wanted to bring some candy by for our kids. {That was nice.} Of course, we don't let our kids eat a lot of sugar, food dyes, and they are intolerant to wheat and dairy, so being the good mama that I am, I inspected the candy and ate it before they could. {Hooray for me! Mom of the year, here, right?} Not so much.....
The next morning, I woke up with a stomach ache. Duh. Halloween came, the kids went trick or treating and agreed to trade their candy in for a new toy. Hooray! But, you know what that means? I ate some of their candy. After my stomach hurt that morning from candy the night before. So, I ate well in the morning, drank my water, and went on my way....until lunch time. I was hungry but decided to eat some more candy before lunch. An appetizer, maybe? Yah, not a great idea. Know what happened later that day ? The screaming manic woman I used to be came back with a vengeance. It was scary! I was angry, having negative thoughts, being totally irrational and unpleasant. Think I would have learned a lesson, right?
Not so much. My husband, the great man he is, hid the candy that night. {Yay for him!} The problem is, I knew where he hid the candy! So, I would sneak in and get a few pieces. At one point, he busted me {ouch!} and said "do you think it is worth it?" "What do you mean," I reply. "What it does to your mental well being," he said. "Um, yah, sure is. It's just one piece."
So, what happened today? More raging lunatic-ness. Seriously, what is my deal? Why can I not stay away from the candy? I don't know. It happened again tonight - I snuck into the candy stash and the words my husband said went through my head. And, ya know what? It didn't stop me. That is when I realized I truly have a problem. And, that is why I can't keep sugar/candy/junk in the house. Scary, friends. It was scary that having a few pieces of candy could take me back to that place I used to be in before the 21 Day Fix. Eek. Anyone else relate to this?
Yes! Totally there with you!
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